A new start.

The new school year has started and it's exciting as well as terrifying. This year I'm supposed to graduate and today we had a little talk about what's expected of us and what we can expect from the forthcoming half a year.

I'm happy to have my project idea all planned out and written down with just the need to finetune it and hand it in, but I'm also terrified it will be turned down and I have to start from scratch again. I'm just so excited to start working on this project idea I have and I really really hope it's good enough and I didn't take too much on my plate. I'm just going to have to wait and see.

I have so many plans for this year. I want to live more healthy - drink more, eat better, I want to keep track of everything I'm doing and be nice and organized in all the areas and, probably most of all, I want to document everything. I want to write all my progress and exciting things and downgrading things down and I want to photograph what's happening and who I'm with and where I'm working. I want to remember this time. I don't know why I suddenly feel such a deep need to do this, I don't know where it comes from, probably the knowledge that this will be the last half a year I will spend with these people, in this setting, at this school and I just want to remember it for what it was like. For this I'm taking my analog camera to school with me tomorrow. I want to try and do this every day and just document the things I feel fit. I really hope I'm not too awkward and just take it out whenever I want to. I think it will make remembering a bit more special and it will document the process of my project in a nice way. It's also a good way to stay busy with photography, I suppose.

For the writing part, I'm turning back to this blog again. I enjoy sitting down and writing my thoughts down and I hate that I'm not taking the time to really do it. I've thought this so many times before, but I'm setting myself to really do it this time. For myself. To have something to look back on.

Maybe, school is going to start a blog where we, as a class, will share our experiences of graduating, but I kind of doubt this actually happening. If it does, though, I'm afraid this blog will fall back to the background. And I will cry over it.

But we're not there, just yet. Let's see how my first week of school get's on and we'll go further from there.

Have a nice life,
Xoxo
Winnie.