Last saturday I went out with one of my friends to get a christmas sweater. But that's another story. This story will be told after coming saturday.
Today is for something else: Music.
To be exact: Songs. The songs that got me through the year.
Later this month I will compose an Album top 10, but I'm not quite ready for that, just yet.
So first I'm going to talk about songs, because when I thing about the past year, I mostly think about songs that ment a lot to me for a period of time, or still do. In no particular order (because I just can't):
This year I REALLY got into The Heist, the Macklemore & Ryan Lewis album. From that, Ten Thousand Hours stood out for most of the year. (I love the whole album, but that one touched me on a spiritual level, or however you want to put it) 'A life lived for art is never a life wasted.' 'Take that, system, what'd you expect? A generation of kids choosing love over a desk.' 'I could be who I wanted if I could see my potential.' 'The greats weren't great because at birth they could paint, the greats were great because they paint a lot.' I'll stop now, but I could easily go on. When I was standing at Sziget and I realized they started this song, I felt like all year had been leading up to that moment. Perfect music, perfect people, perfect place. Pure happiness.
But hat's not all from Macklemore & Ryan Lewis (who I truly fell in love with, such amazing music), after Sziget, where I heard some ~for me~ unknown music, I hade a wade through everything they made and I found the gem that is Irish Celebration. Just listen and be happy about life.
Something else I for real found this year was Arctic Monkeys. I loved their last album (as seen in my Album top 10 of 2013) but I left it to that. After catching their show at Pinkpop on tv, I was sold. Form that also came some songs that became anthems for different periods in this year.
The first one probably was Crying Lightning. 'The next time that I caught my own reflection it was on it's way to meet you, thinking of excuses to postpone.' Not sure why but I feel so 'connected' to that line. It did something to me. This made me love the whole rest of the song right away. Just that line made it. One that has been Really, Really important this year is Secret Door. One part of the song gave me some kind of... hope?... many, many times this year. 'Fools on parade cavort and carry on for waiting eyes, ones you would rather be behind then in front of, though she's never been the kind to be hollowed by the stares. Fools on parade frolic and fuck about to make a gage, turn to a scribble on a page, by a picture, that holds her absence, but you're daft to think she'd care.' Every time I felt unsure or unconfident about something, this is what I sang to myself. In my head, or softly out loud. These are the lines I quietly sang to myself as I was rising up in the little basket, ready to see the Sziget sight from high above and then jump towards it. These lines gave me a lot of hope and confidence this year and I feel like they will keep doing this for times to come. A smaller one is Love is a Laserquest. The line 'I've tried to ask you this, in some daydreams that I've had, but you're always busy, being make-believe.' is relatable to me, since I'm a day-dreamer, always coming up with whole stories in my head. I love that line. So much. Oh, and find an acoustic version on youtube. I promise you'll fall for it, too, as soon as you've seen that.
For a very short time, but a very important one nontheless, there was one more song. That was One Three Hill by U2. It was mostly one night, to be honest, but that one night it did its work in a way that stayed with me right up until now. It was a few nights before Sziget. I was home alone and I was so nervous. It was unreal. Constantly feeling nauseous. Being a ridiculous emotional wreck, ready to cry at any given moment. Being really unsure about myself en al the decisions I've made. Feeling like the whole Sziget thing was a big mistake and I should just not go and leave it for what it was. Worst mistake ever. It was pretty bad. Not really a time to be home alone, let's be honest. But I was. That day I also worked, where I said goodbye to one of my co-workers, who said something immensly nice to me that kept haunting me the rest of the day. She brought back a little bit of hope deep, deep inside of me. That night, I dicovered 'The Joshua Tree', the U2 album. I had listened to it all night. Then late, late at night, I finally let out all my emotions about the amazing, sweet things my co-worker had said, wrote it down, cried very loudly out of confusion and decided to put the music back on. This song started playing. It was all I needed and more right then at that moment. That particular moment stayed with me for the rest of the year and I stil haven't forgotten it now, which makes listening to the Joshua Tree in particular song number 9 just that little more special.
~I did go to Sziget in the end. I stepped over my worries and insecurities and just did it and ended up having the best time ever. I can't imagine there was a chance I could have missed Macklemore & Ryan Lewis just because I was a bit nervous for something new. Thank god I didn't. This didn't change the fact that I couldn't properly eat for that rest of the week, though. Sadly. Luckily my apitite was back when at Sziget.~
Wow. Big story around one song, there. I'll just leave it at that. Long post. Maybe I'll come back with some more songs later. These are the songs that came to mind at this moment, but I'm sure I'll be hitting myself tonight over some really important songs that I forgot to mention.
I will be back soon. When I have something else to tell. Until then:
Have a nice life,
Xoxo
Winnie.
The songs on Spotify:
Ten Thousand Hours
Irish Celebration
Crying Lightning
Secret Door
Love is a Laserquest (+Acoustic)
One Tree Hill
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